Wednesday, February 19, 2014

13 weeks and 4 days pregnant!!

Baby Estrada due Aug~24th!!!

As you know from previous post, this baby was conceived naturally after 7 years of trying.
 4 months post miscarriage... So quite a shock for our family at Christmas!! 

From the moment they put the wand on my tummy, our little peach kept jumping, waving it's little arms and kicking its legs. 10 fingers!! 10 toes!!! So adorable. I know it is hard to tell in these photos, but the baby has the cutest mouth/ lips and big cheeks like momma. Adorable little nose like Tallis and is SUPER active like daddy!! The baby was jumping and twisting and flipping around in there, haha! So the baby had been growing like a weed!!!! They moved the due date up AGAIN!! 
The baby is now due Aug-24th and is measuring at 13 weeks and 4 days!!! I should only be 12 weeks and 6 days!! Crazy how fast this baby is growing. So strong and heartbeat is very strong. We still have not heard it, but we see it and we got to see the brain, looks perfect!! No wonder I have been sleeping non-stop. The baby is growing above and beyond. So all good news. No sex yet, but we get another ultrasound at 19 weeks to which they will know the sex by then. So here is the baby. The head is to the right and it is showing the profile. You can see it's little features already  That is the arm and hand next to it's face. 
You can even see the fingers!!

Wednesday, February 5, 2014

We have a HEARTBEAT!!!

Well as you can see, we did not get in at 8 weeks but at 10. As you can imagine my stress and worry for two weeks waiting to find out if our baby had a heartbeat was... well... unexplainable. I had to call the GP to get in early, because my mid-wife was new and the other woman I had over the summer had retired. I was so frantic thinking, this girl is young, un-married with no children. She has no clue what I am dealing with right now... She pushed my anxiety off like it was nothing and did not try to help me out at all. So I call the GP and told him my fears and how I had 3 miscarriages within a years time, and how I have been having sharp pains in my lower right side and other things I won't go into that were concerning me. He was great and got me in the next day for a scan. Then it really hit me... We would be walking down those same halls we did this past summer when we lost our baby... The Halls were the same, very long... They almost felt longer. We went in and sat in the waiting room with me rubbing my hands together roughly and tearing up and begging the Lord for Mercy on our baby. My husband kept saying it's going to be okay, the baby is fine... She called us back I laid down on the bed and I put my hands over my eyes, so afraid to look and as soon as they said, and there is the baby!! Looks great!! And theres the HEARTBEAT!!! Very strong!! I was measuring two days bigger. My uterus is very tilted so we did not get the best photo of the baby, but I did not care, as long as the heart was beating strong, that was all we needed. I laid there crying and praising the Lord over and over and over... So here is a photo of our little one. We go back in Feb-16th at my 12 week mark. Hopefully the photos will be better!!! Please continue to pray for our family and this precious baby as it develops and grows strong. 

Becoming pregnant after miscarriage...

Three days before Christmas the Lord gave us an early Christmas gift, a positive test. I was shocked, anxious, scared, but praising God for this gift of life. A cloud hangs over the excitement after you have gone through a miscarriage. Your first thought is excitement, the second thought is oh no... I can't go trough that agin, the pain and heartache was too great. Then you go to begging God to please have mercy on your sweet baby growing inside of you. I got a very bright red dark line at 4 weeks pregnant, so I knew that was a good sign and nausea kicked in at 5.3 weeks, then boobs were killing me around that time as well and moved to itching really bad and just really sore. All these things seem to be good, but those things happened with the last one somewhat, just not as much. My tummy is already poking out at 6 weeks and three days, but if you followed my pregnancy with Tallis, you would not be surprised!! I was huge from day one. The last pregnancy I had, I was on down regulation drugs for IVF. This time nothing. After 7 years of trying to conceive the Lord opened my womb. So everything is going to be different this go round. I have never had a pregnancy without being on some kind of fertility drug. It took my body 4 months to ovulate after loosing the baby back in Aug and BAM, we were pregnant! As for the three babies still waiting for us in Oxford, it a sidetrack and delay, but a much wanted sidetrack. Not sure why things happen when they do and the timing, wish I could go into it more as to why we are so confused at this stage, but hopefully soon I can go into more detail.

I broke into tears this morning calling in for my first Mid-wife appointment. I knew that once I went down that path, there was no turning back. I will find out in two weeks if this child has a heartbeat and growing properly. I was so nerves picking the phone up and dialing the number. Unless you have gone through what we have, it will be very hard for you to understand the anxiety we are going though. I have been praying non-stop for this child to be safe and developing correctly. Praying that it's little heart is beating strong inside of me. Once I hit 5.3 weeks I knew the heart would be already beating or beating soon. Talk about fear and worry as a mom... I keep looking at the test and the line being so much darker than the control line and I use that as a good sign that all is well, even if I know things can change. My first appointment is Jan-21 with our mid-wife. I am praying I get the same one. She knew what we have been through and she was so nice and helpful with the last pregnancy. Getting us into an ultrasound at 8 weeks when they normally don't let you have one till your 12 weeks. I am very hesitant about going and getting another one done. I know... Me not going in does not mean everything will be fine, but the stress of laying on that table and waiting to see if your child has a heartbeat is indescribable and nerve wracking. You all won't read this till we already know what is going on at 8 weeks or not at all... If something goes wrong I might not even post this... Hopefully my next post will be a positive one and happy one. I am praying it is... Please Lord... Have mercy on our family.