Thursday, December 30, 2010

16 Weeks Pregnant!!

So today we are 16 weeks and 4 days pregnant. this week was quite a shock for me. I started to lactate!! It was so weird but cool! On top of that my breasts are killing me and have grown just in the past 3-4 days. I just got a new bra and I am already growing out of it! Another cool thing I am experiencing more every day is the baby kicking! I have lost track of how many times a day it is kicking. It is always in the same spot. I was riding in the car with my mom bringing back some wings from Beef O' Brady's for our husbands and smelling the hot wings made the baby kick me hard! As well as me singing in church then sitting down it started kicking up a storm! I am loving it. I know it is the Lords way of comforting me through this time of not seeing my little one. I finally get to see the baby Jan-3rd (Monday) and will hopefully get to find the sex out. We are so excited just to hopefully see it on my 17 week mark. Last time we saw the baby it was only 10 weeks old. We are over due for some one on one time with this sweet baby. Please pray the doctors get to let us have a ultrasound. I will post photos as soon as we get home, but will not reveal the sex of the baby till the family knows first :) Hope you all had a wonderful and blessed Christmas season.
Love, Laura

Thursday, December 23, 2010

15 weeks old!

This is how big the baby is now. No this not our baby but just a example of the size of our little one. So cool!! I wish I could look inside of me and see this :) The baby is the size of a softball or navel orange.

Monday, December 20, 2010

15 weeks Pregnant!!

We finally got a appointment with an Ob-Gyn on Jan-3rd. I will be exactly 17 weeks pregnant then and we are hoping to find out the sex!! We are SUPER excited and can't wait till we get to see the baby. The last time we saw the wee one it was 10 weeks old. I have yet to have an examination so they are going to do blood work, ultrasound, an internal exam and hopefully I get to meet my midwife. I have heard from several people that this doctor is awesome, and will calm our nerves about this pregnancy. My belly has changed shape and is now more like a little basketball. You can see where the uterus is sticking out above the pubic bone. I am feeling the baby a lot now. Just little flutters and more so at night when I am laying down going to sleep. They are light but concentrated in the same spot every time. I am loving it!! I can't wait to post photos of the baby on Jan-3rd, but I wont tell everyone the sex till we have our baby gender reveling party :)

Tuesday, December 7, 2010

2nd Trimester!!!

My sister Elizabeth and me.
I can't wait to spend Christmas with my family this year!!

The house is decorated for Christmas!!

And last but not not least!!

Yeah!! We made it!! This is how big our baby is this week! I can't believe how fast our little one is growing. I had really bad growing pains this past week and I even finally felt the baby move, but only for a second. It was the coolest thing!! I was on my back watching T.V. and about 2 1/2 inches below my belly button I felt it rolling then it stopped. I wanted to cry I was so excited. I have never felt that before and I can't wait to feel the baby again and hopefully soon! Still looking for a OB & GYN but we can't get anyone to call us back.... Please pray we get in soon. It has been three weeks since we had our sonogram and have yet to be examined as well. I always get nervous when I don't see the baby in a while... I am always praying over this sweet baby and for the Lord to protect it. Hope to put a photo of the baby up soon for you :)

Thursday, December 2, 2010

12 weeks Pregnant

Yes, this is me at only 12 weeks pregnant!! I am HUGE!! My ovaries have not gone down and the baby keeps growing so my tummy is quite compacted. I am in pain a lot due to my uterus pushing on my ovaries (size of tangerines) and my uterus is a little bigger than a grapefruit. So needless to say everyone thinks I am like 5 months pregnant. I say NOPE... I am due around June 13-16th. I am getting the hormonal headaches a lot this past week and having a lot of sharp pains in my ovaries/ Uterus and in turn makes it hard for me to sleep, walk, and go to the bathroom. I keep thinking maybe they are finally going down now, but I don't know because
I just moved back to the States and have yet to find a OB & GYN. It is hard trying to find one that will know what I am going through. I need an understanding doctor and one that will take there time with us. So please pray we find a good one and a good Hospital to deliver in. I will post photos of the baby as soon as I get another photo. I can't wait to see our sweet little jumping bean!!

Tuesday, November 16, 2010

10 Weeks Pregnant!!

Dear friends and Family,
We finally got to see the baby jump today!! It was so cute just bouncing up and down. Waving its little arms and kicking its little feet. We can't wait to finally feel this little one kick inside of me :) It was such a blessing for Justin and I to see this beautiful baby the Lord has given us. We are so overwhelmed by His grace in our lives.

Due date: June-16th-2011

Sunday, November 7, 2010

9 weeks Pregnant.

No body tells you all the strange things that happen to you during your pregnancy. So I will tell you what I have been dealing with.
Now remember I am also dealing with hyper-stimulation from the IVF. It is where my ovaries are enlarged. My tummy is really big and is not going to go down till I deliver this little miracle growing inside of me. But all this is worth it in the end when I get to hold baby Estrada :)

1. Constipation:
And when I say that, I mean it to the most extreme you can think of and very painful I have been eating prunes, salads and fruit. Still very little movement down there.

2. My lower back is killing me:
When I stand for more than 10 min, my lower back starts to ache really bad. So bad that I now have a pinched nerve on my hip/ Butt and the pain radiates down to my knee on my right leg. It is really hard for me to walk and the only thing that seems to help it for about 10 minutes is stretching in the warm shower. I bend over and try to touch my toes while the hot water runs down my lower back. It helps loosens those muscles.

3. Cramping/ spotting:
I have really kind of stopped seeing blood. It is brown now and only once every 3 days? The cramping comes and goes and they are light pinches and I talk to the baby and say it is okay... Grow baby grow!!

4. Insomnia:
I have been waking up ever since my 5th week all night to pee and then as well as 5:00am but I am always too sleepy to even open my eyes, but my brain is running till about 7:00am. It does not matter how much I do during the day or how little.

5. Sleeping during the day:
This started around my 7th week of pregnancy and has not let up. I hit a wall during the day and pass out even if I am in a public place.

6. Sort Temper:
I'm guessing this is from either my hormones mixed with me being hungry/ nauseous at the same time, but being sleepy all the time does not help either. I am not taking crap from people... If you are inconsiderate, uncaring, or snap at me for no reason, I will flip out. I am usually a pretty happy go lucky person, but I have found myself being very emotional and easier to tick off. And trust my husband, you don't want to get on my bad side right now. I have been doing a lot of praying for the Lord to calm my spirit and temper, but man, pregnant Laura is very moody and cries a lot!! Sorry in advance if I am a little short with you. It is not you, it is me and I am just trying to cope with all the stuff my body is going through. The only thing besides Christ that calms me down is my husband, and knowing that I have a baby growing inside of me right now. I guess the stress of loosing this little one is always in the back of my mind as well and that does not help... So I am not taking one day for granted.

7. Pee all the time: This is NO lie!! I pee every 30 minutes all day long and again all during the night. I get up about 4 times during the night and run into the wall half the time. No wonder my body aches...

Hope this helps you feel like your not alone in dealing with all of these things. It can be very wearing on your body, but just think about the wonderful outcome!!

Friday, October 29, 2010

Another scare this morning...

I started bleeding again this morning around 7:00am and it was a med-heavy bleed. Period like but no cramping... We called the clinic and they had me come in right away. The doctor put me on bed rest till the bleeding stops, I told him I have been on bed rest for the past month, LOL! He said for whatever reason my uterus is shedding access stuff and is getting rid of it. But that it is normal. I'm not cramping just bleeding and it has stopped again. A few blood clots here and there but nothing big. It seems to go through peeks and valleys. He said drink lots of water so that my uterus mussels will relax. The baby looks perfect and safe and the sack looks thick and high up in the uterus. So it is the bottom half that is shedding. I am in bed now and will stay here for a couple days. We got to see the face today, legs, arms, eye and nose. It has chubby cheeks!! Here is the photo.
Love, Laura

Thursday, October 28, 2010

Freaked Out!

Last night I had two intervals of sharp cramping pain. My lower back tightened up and was accompanied by a cold sweat and me wanting to vomit. I went upstairs after these two awful cramps to go potty and when I wiped, it was like someone had cut me down there. It was pure red blood... Nothing heavy but there was a blood clot and it was enough to scare me half to death and caused a crying jig on the toilet... I was begging God to keep the baby safe and growing strong. This was the first time I had bleed at all, so yes it freaked me out!! Through the night the blood turned to light pink then by this morning it was brown. I called the IVF clinic anyways and they said as long as it is not a heavy period (soaking pad kind) not to worry about it. They want me to call tomorrow to see how I am doing. I told them how sore I was waking up this morning. My uterus and insides felt like it has had a good workout! With my tummy sore and watching it change shape and position, it kind of throws you off a bit. My tummy is becoming more pointy instead of bloated every where. Yesterday I was 7 weeks and 2 days pregnant and this is common around this time of pregnancy. I feel like the baby has grown so much just within the past couple days. The past 2-3 days I have been falling asleep from 3:00pm-5:00pm and I can't help it. I just pass out! All good signs and I just pray the pregnancy stays strong and moving forward. The bleeding is so stressful and if you have gone through what we have you will understand what fear we had gone through last night... Please keep us in your prayers and for the baby to stay strong.

Sunday, October 24, 2010

7 weeks Pregnant

Your baby's leg and arm buds are longer now and they have divided into segments where the hands and feet will be. The hands and feet also have an area where the fingers and toes will begin to form. At this point of your pregnancy, the heart is bulging from the body and it has divided into right and left chambers. The brain's hemispheres are continuing to grow and the air passages into the lungs are visible. Your baby's eyes are beginning to get pigment. The nose is developing and the beginning of the face can be seen. The baby's abdomen is developing quickly and the appendix and pancreas are already present. Your baby's digestive tract is beginning to form and the hindgut is present.

Now about 1cm long, the size of a grape, your baby has distinct, slightly webbed fingers and toes. They look a bit like tiny paddles. Your baby is a jumping bean, moving in fits and starts. His liver is churning out large amounts of red blood cells until the bone marrow forms and takes over this role.

At seven weeks, your baby enters a very busy stage. Between now and 20 weeks, he will grow rapidly. Body parts that formed in the first few weeks of life, such as the heart and brain, will become more specialised and complicated. He now has an appendix and a pancreas, which will eventually produce the hormone insulin to aid in digestion. Tooth buds, palate and tongue are forming, while his ears continue to develop and eyelids are starting to cover his eyes. Your baby’s skin is paper thin, and veins are clearly visible.

Friday, October 22, 2010

It has finally hit me!

It has finally hit me today that we are really pregnant. It takes me a while for me to process things and once I saw the heartbeat and saw that life is thriving inside of me, I got SO excited!! I can't wait till we find out the sex of the baby :)

Thursday, October 21, 2010


What we saw today. It is a little blurry but it was so clear on the screen.

We went in today and got to see our little grain of rice :) It took her forever because she was concentrating on my ovaries and how huge my follicles still are. She said next scan they will have gone down considerably and the baby will be doubling in size each week.
They could only detect one in there, but a very strong one. The heartbeat is VERY strong and the sack is big and perfect. It was the most amazing thing we have ever seen. We cried, hugged, & praised the Lord for the life he gave us. We are happy that we saw the heart beat, but sad about the other one not making it... We both teared up when we heard about our loss... We know that this is all in the Lord's hands and we accept it, and pray for the little soul we lost... It was a bitter sweet day for us.
Our 8 week scan (Nov-2) and actually see a head and butt :) Thank you all for your prayers and support during this very emotional time and trying to understand what we have been going through.
Love you and talk soon, Justin & Laura

Wednesday, October 20, 2010

Feeling a bit stressed...

We just got back from our trip to Bath. It was beautiful but the walking around was a bit too much for me. I almost fainted this morning in the bathroom and got really sick at the B&B breakfast table, cold sweat and all. I also keep wanting to fall asleep in public places. Today I fell asleep in a Costa coffee for hour and 1/2 to 2 hours!! My sweet husband just let me sleep on the couch while we waited for our bus back to Oxford. My tummy is most definitely poking out. But even with all the symptoms, I am still freaking out about tomorrow. I am so scared we are going to go into the ultrasound and not see a heartbeat. I keep having nightmares about things like this. I have to stop and pray about it and ask for the Lord to calm my spirit and give me peace. Justin had a dream last night that we had a little boy and that he was beautiful. He had Justin's eyes but my face. We want theses babies so bad and for them to be safe. I keep thinking it is too good to be true, but all life is like that. We don't deserve anything, but the Lord blesses us because He loves us, and sometimes He withholds blessing and we might never know why...
So we just need to keep plugging away and keep trusting in Him and pray for His Grace on our life and our children's lives...
Please pray for us tomorrow and for the babies to be safe and healthy growing inside of me. Thank you for your support during this time.
Christ's Love, Justin and Laura

Sunday, October 17, 2010

Already showing...

So I went out tonight with friends and they could not believe how big my belly has gotten. You can see the bottom right hand corner. If there are not twins in there then that is going to be one BIG baby!! I am only 6 weeks on Monday. But my boobs and tummy look different than the typical 6 week baby body. I am loving it and am not complaining. Ultrasound on Thursday!! I think I would freak out a bit if one of the two we put in me split! The more the merrier I say :)

Thursday, October 14, 2010


I am still really bloated, but the cramping has gown down some. I am going through all day morning sickness. I was craving Subway Sandwiches but when my husband brought them home I could not eat them. I have been so hungry but as soon as I smell or taste anything I want to gag! But I will take this any day if this means the babies are doing well and growing strong. I am drinking lots of water and I did get strawberries down last night and today. I am okay with Pasta, like Spaghetti, Manicotti, ravioli, and I am craving Meximelts from Taco Bell, but no Taco Bells here or Olive Gardens in the UK :( Oh well moving back home next month so I am sure there will be tons there, YUM! As long as I can get something down that is what I am eating. I was so frustrated last night, because I kept taking a bite out of my sandwich and putting it down so that I would not barf... If you know me, you know that this is torture. I love food and I love to eat!! My friend Sheri was right, being pregnant was the best weight-loss plan she had ever been on :) Everything is thin on me, my face, bum, arms, but my boobs and tummy are growing and I love it!! I can't wait to go out and get maternity clothes. As of now I only have one pair of pants I can wear, everything else is too small. Bring on the BABY belly!!

Monday, October 11, 2010

5 weeks and counting!

Finally hit the 5 week mark!!! God is just so amazing. God's hands are in all things and all things are possible through Him... It irritates me when people put limitations on God. Just look at this life forming in me now. If the Lord had not opened up the door for us to get free IVF here in the UK, then we might have never have had this chance. His hands create all life, whether in the womb or outside of it... Thank you Lord for your gift of life.
One more week and we get to see the babies. After that me and the hubby are going on a trip to Italy and Greece. We need one last hoopla before we head back to Florida in November. I can't wait!!

Sunday, October 10, 2010

Thankful For The Life Inside Of Me :)

We are so grateful for the life living inside of me :) The Lord has been so gracious to me and my husband for allowing us to love the life He has handed to us... Thank you Lord for your comforting words from the bible and for you loving me. No matter what happens from this day on, you still created life and entrusted it to us.
There are so many hurting women out there that have dealt with pain and loss and I am one of them. In saying that, those woman should know better than anyone to try to stay positive, and encourage one another during the early stages of pregnancy. Please try to be positive, sensitive, and happy for women like me and many other woman that have struggled so many years with trying to get pregnant. The excitement that comes with a positive sign is such a happy moment when you are finally blessed with life. I am so blessed to have Erin as a IVF pregnancy buddy!! Thank you sweet girl for walking with me through this time. I am so excited to go through this pregnancy with you and your little ones as well as to be due within a couple days of me!!
I am loving looking at all the little things to get for a nursery :) I'm a Mom now and always will be one from this day forward... That is a blessing all on its own :) Thank you Lord for knitting this life together inside of me day by day. Please women stay positive and don't allow yourself to feel defeated going into this. Have peace in knowing that no matter what, that positive is still a positive and your a mom :) So you look at those baby clothes and plan until you get a different outcome. Don't allow this wait of the first 3 months to crush your happiness for this pregnancy. Yes anything can happen, but that is life... You can't keep living your life already defeated. Your pregnant and you should be excited!! I'm not telling you to buy anything your first trimester, but it is okay to look and start planing for the life inside of you :) Who cares what others say and think or say to you, this is your pregnancy, not theirs. This is your happy moment, so live it and be happy. I don't know the outcome of my pregnancy but I am not going to hide and live in a closet till I hold the babies in my arms. That is just no way to live. Celebrate the life you have right now, because the baby/ babies are there now, right this moment and needs your love, prayer.

Proverbs 3:5-6

Trust in the LORD with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding;

in all your ways acknowledge him,

and he will make your paths straight.

Saturday, October 9, 2010

4 Weeks and 5 days Pregnant.

I woke up this morning to VERY sore breasts. I feel like some one has been using them as punching bags. Still cramping and the morning sickness is more of an all day thing. My uterus feels a bit heavy as well as lots of pressure. I think me taking the 800mg of progesterone a day has caused my Endo to flair up a bit on the outside of my uterus. But all in all I am doing good and getting excited over this upcoming ultrasound!!!! I pray our little ones are safe and thriving inside of me. It is slowly sinking in that we are pregnant. I can't wait to start a nursery... This has been such a dream of mine ever sense we got married. Buying a crib set and finding little things that make the nursery so cozy, sweet and calming. We are going to be going through a major change this coming month with us moving. So please pray we have a smooth transition and I can start to nest and feel okay with all the changes to come. I could really use prayer right now.
Thank you friends, Laura

Wednesday, October 6, 2010

Ultrasound Scan Appointment made!!

I go in on October-21st at 12:30 so that we can see the babies and hear there heart beat!!
We are so excited and can't wait!!


So I took the test the doctors gave me to take for today, even though I cheated and took my own on Sunday morning, LOL! The line is darker and looking good!! Still cramping but no spotting. I am feeling some pressure in my lower abdomen, and I am guess it is from all the cramping and growth going on down there :) Two weeks we go in to see the babies!!

Tuesday, October 5, 2010

So Far So Good.

So far so good :) Just some cramping here and there but no spotting. I am starting to get morning sickness but more of an all day thing. It really depends on what I am smelling. My hairspray makes me sick as well as frying meat.. but I am loving chili!! I woke up and ate some for breakfast because cereal makes me want to gag... Weird I know. Feeling dizzy a bit but I think my body is starting to settle down some and is getting use to the babies :) Can't wait till two weeks from now when we go in for a ultra sound!! We are going to get a video camera so that we can tape it. I can't wait to hear there heartbeat!
I am praying for Erin from (A Journey To Our Baby) Blog. She is going to take her test soon, and we are praying it is a positive. She is a couple days behind me. Please Lord let her babies be okay and thriving inside of her belly right now. Please put your hands of protection on her and her babies. Hang in there and know that we are thinking about you...
Love, Laura

Monday, October 4, 2010


So I have been worried sick with all this heavy cramping this weekend. I have not had any spotting, but when I have cramps like this it is never a good sign... So I snuck up-stairs while my husband was sleeping and I took the extra test out of the closet, slipped into the bathroom on my tip toes and tinkled on the stick, I say tinkled because I have been going to the bathroom every hour on the hour and it was more of a half a pee...LOL! Sorry Kim, I know you hate that word, hahaha :)
But when I saw what popped up next I was floored!!! BFP!!!!! (BIG FAT POSITIVE!!!)
I started sobbing and praising God for the little miracles inside of me. 3 years of trying and having a negative every month to finally seeing a positive throws you for a loop! I never thought we would get pregnant. But through God, all things are possible!!!!
I really wanted to do something special to surprise my husband but I was just so overcome with joy that I ran into the bedroom plopped on top of him and whispered in his ear.... YOUR- A- DADDY.... He perked up and said what? I said YOUR- A- DADDY!! I just took a test and it is positive!!
He said let me see!!!! He jumped out of bed and I ran to get the test off the back of the toilet, sink, window ledge? I can't remember anything after I took it because I was to busy THANKING THE LORD and crying!! I brought it back in and showed him.
He flung open the curtains to get a good look at it and started tearing up and jumping up and down shouting I'M A DAD!!! AND YOUR A MOM!! WE'RE PARENTS!!!!!!!! We hugged each other so tight and he kissed my belly and told them he loves them and that he is their father... It was so sweet...
We are amazed and overjoyed that it has finally happened to us. All the cramping was the two little ones burrowing deep inside of me and my cervix closing for the next 9 months! My friend who also had Endometriosis as well said that she had sever cramping as well. Just a lovely side effect of pregnancy for us Endo girls. She said hers stopped around 6 weeks pregnant.
We go in to see the doctors in two weeks (6 weeks Pregnant) so that we can see them. We are praying they are both there thriving and ready to greet us :)
Please keep praying that they stay there safe and secure and that I have a safe and productive pregnancy. Telling our parents and siblings yesterday was so much fun!
The best is telling the moms. They were overjoyed!! My mom jumped up and said I need to get the family!! They came in the room thinking I had bad news to tell, but to see my sister Liz's face light up with joy for us was wonderful!! My mother in-law even cried which in turn made us cry!! She has been itching to buy baby clothes for the past couple years, LOL! The reality of all of this is slowing sinking in for us... Even though we are in the UK, we feel everyone's love from the States and can't wait to introduce our little ones to our family and friends
June-13th-2011!!!! We are only telling Blog friends and family, so NO FACEBOOK posts for a while... :) Thank you for all the prayers and please continue to pray for us during the first trimester... Love you all, Justin and Laura

Sunday, October 3, 2010

One day shy of 4 weeks pregnant.

Tomorrow I will be considered 4 weeks Pregnant.

How Big is the Baby at Four Weeks Pregnant?

Your baby at 4 weeks pregnant is still incredibly miniscule, about .014 to .04 inches long. That is roughly the equivalent to 1/2 to 1mm long, which isn't very long at all. Your baby will slowly start changing by 4 weeks pregnant so that he or she starts resembling more like a small tadpole with eyes than an egg. That is quite an accomplishment for your little one!

Your Baby's Growth and Development
Your baby will be implanting furiously during pregnancy week 4 into the uterine lining, to ensure that he or she has a safe and secure home for the next nine months. Fetal development by and large is still in the earliest stages at this point. By now the blastocyst or ball of cells that is your baby will be imbedding deeper and deeper into the lining of the uterus. The amniotic cavity is forming and the placenta is starting to form.

Sever Cramping.

So yesterday I spent all day on the couch with sever cramping and anxiety. Every time I would have a heavy cramp Justin and I would pray over the babies. Asking the Lord to protect them. My uterus is so sensitive because of the Endometriosis as well as the scar-tissue from the surgery to keep the Endo back for a while. So normal cramping for woman is 10 times worse for me... My uterus feels like it has had a work out!! Literally sore from all the cramping, and I am going to the bathroom every hour, even at night I go about once every 2-3 hours. They say your cervix changes position. I am wondering if this is what I was going through yesterday? I could take a test today and it very well could come up positive, but we are going to wait... It is driving me nuts!! Yesterday I feel asleep out of no where on the couch off and on for about two hours. So the sleepiness is definitely kicking in and the aversion to food as well. I am trying not to get to excited but my body has never felt like this before. My uterus feels sore and pressure as well as getting cramps in two different locations. back and forth cramping then all over cramping. I pray that is both of them settling in and getting nice a cozy. I keep hearing that pregnancy for woman with Endo is not fun and different from woman without this disease. But I don't care. I just want them to be safe and protected inside of me. Please pray all is well and that the babies are safe inside of me thriving :)

Friday, October 1, 2010

Signs & Symptoms of Pregnancy With IVF

  1. For women who have undergone in vitro fertilization, or IVF, the two weeks spent waiting to find out if the procedure was successful can be painstaking. After two weeks, your doctor likely will order a blood test and possibly perform an ultrasound to find out if the embryos have implanted and you are pregnant. Many women don't experience any symptoms, while others may notice some signs that indicate they might be pregnant. These signs can be caused by other factors as well, such as your menstrual period, recuperation from the IVF embryo transfer or as a side effect of medication.

  2. Spotting

    Spotting or light vaginal bleeding can be an early sign that the embryo transfer following in vitro fertilization was a success and you are pregnant. Some women experience bleeding when the embryo implants into the uterine wall, however, light vaginal bleeding also can be a sign that your period is starting.

    Breast Tenderness

    Some women experience breast tenderness or swelling as an early sign of pregnancy. Some women who undergo IVF experience breast tenderness a week or two after the embryo transfer, but many women do not have it at all.


    Although nausea is commonly associated with women who are in the later stages of early pregnancy, some women have morning sickness before their first missed period. And morning sickness doesn't have to be experienced in the morning. Many women feel nauseous at night or even all day. Food aversions or cravings also can appear early in pregnancy.

    Other Signs

    Other signs women may experience in the weeks following an embryo transfer include mild cramping and other symptoms that are commonly part of premenstrual syndrome.

Wednesday, September 29, 2010

Praying for our Babies :)

The Day we got Implanted with the Twins

We are still trying to cope with the news we got on Sunday about our remaining babies... It's not an easy thing to be going through for either of us...
One thing we have been doing is talking to the two in my belly and telling them to hang on and that we love them and can't wait to meet them and hold them in our arms in 9 months. We also pray over them and read the bible to them.
I take my test next Wednesday morning to find out how they are doing and if they have implanted. As of now... I am a mom and Justin is a dad and we are pregnant. I have been having mild cramping, and avoiding foods I would normally eat because I am getting queazy... Hopefully all really good signs of pregnancy. But I am taking it easy and getting my rest because well... I am so sleepy all the time and the rainy weather is not helping, LOL! Please keep praying for our two precious babies in my tummy. Pray they hold on and get all burrowed in :)

Tuesday, September 28, 2010

Dealing With a Loss...

(This is how Big the twins are)

We got the dreaded phone call on Sunday morning about the remaining three embryos... They don't look good at all, but we told them to go ahead and freeze them anyways and we will put them in next time. The chances are really low for their survival... They are just not growing (not enough cells)... Then we had to give the go ahead for them to put aside the other 3 that stopped growing on day three. They told us that they have passed away... So really the only stable ones are the two in me... Quite a blow to both of us... We cried over their little lives and not ever being able to meet them or hold them... We have loved and prayed for each and every one of them from the moment the Lord gave them life. We are praying that one day we will see them in heaven. I am trying to keep it together and to think positively about the two inside me. My tummy is HUGE right now and I pray it keeps growing for the two inside of me. I have been cramping for the past couple days; so hopefully that means the babies are moving in and getting comfy. Please pray they are doing well and thriving inside of me. Pray also for the Lord to give us peace during this time.
Christ's Love, Justin and Laura

Saturday, September 25, 2010

The BIG Day!

Okay so we went in today to do the transfer this morning. We received sad news that three of our embryos have stopped growing but they are going to leave them alone just to make sure they have passed away... Then they told us that 5 of them look good and should be fully developed blastocyst's by tonight. They said we had 30% chance of pregnancy if we do (1) but 40% if we do (2).
After the Dr. walked out, it gave us time to make a decision. I sat there and sobbed in Justin's arms over those three little lives. It broke our hearts... It hits you like a brick wall... After 5 minuets, the Dr's came back in after I got on the table. I laid there shaking with the emotions of fear, sadness and anxiety. But the Lord gave us peace and reassurance when we told the Doctor to put (2) back inside me. We did not go in there thinking we would do that, but we did. We know this is all in the Lords hands and He has opened so many doors for us. We feel so blessed to have 5 very healthy embryos. When they prepped me for transfer I was in so much pain. I have a lot going on inside me, plus a full bladder (better to have one with the transfer) did not help with the discomfort. The pressure of the speculum hurt so much but the transfer itself was not painful. I got to see it on the monitor next to my bed. I wanted to cry, but I knew that if I started I wouldn't be able to stop myself from sobbing. Just the thought of these (2) tiny little souls inside of me was so overwhelming and seeing it was just amazing. We walked in as 2 but left as 4.
Please pray this pregnancy takes and that Lord puts His hands of protection over all of us.
We feel very confident about our decision. They are going to freeze the rest tomorrow and call us Sunday early morning to let us know if there is any changes in the remaining embryos. This was our last step in this very BIG process. The Lord has been so faithful and loving during this time and so has our friends and family. Thank you all for your loving support during this very difficult time. My hormones are so high right now. I have 800mg of progesterone pumping through my veins a day. So I am feeling very anxious, sleepy, and emotional/ sensitive. Please pray the Lord gives us peace through the next two weeks.
Love, Justin and Laura

Thursday, September 23, 2010

Beautiful Flowers This Week!!

Yesterday Justin brought home lilies to let me know he loves me :) Then today he brought home eight roses. One for each baby that the Lord created this week. It was so sweet of him to do for me and the babies. I hope they know how much there mommy and Daddy already love them :)
Thank you Justin for taking good care of me during your exams this week. I know it has not been easy on either of us. Thank you for loving me...
Our friend Cath from church came over and brought me flowers. They are so beautiful! Thank you Cath :)

Day of Egg Retrieval. Monday-September-20th-2010

Before the Egg retrieval.... Little nervous..

Post-Operation... feeling a bit groggy.

Happy about our 15 eggs!!

My hand is killing... they bruised a tendon.


Drinking my tea and eating my biscuits...

Saturday Transfer @ 10:00am

Okay... I had a good cry this morning when I got the call about our 3 day old embryos. 5 out of 8 of them are A/B quality= GREAT! But the remaining 3 out of the 8 are growing very slow... I know they are still so small but they are our babies and we want them all to survive. We are doing a Saturday transfer with one of the 5 A/ B quality babies. Saturday it reaches blastocyst stage (the stage it reaches right before it hatches and attaches to the uterus). I am happy we are waiting till then. It will give my body some time to calm down and a better chance for attachment.
As for the 3 that are not growing very fast, they are going to let them keep growing up to 7 days so they can catch up and freeze the ones that don't pass away... That is going to be a hard day for us if we get that news... We want them all to be heathy and survive. So please pray for our tiny babies, Justin and me. We know it is all in God's hands so we are trusting in Him and finding comfort that this is all going to work out for His glory...

Wednesday, September 22, 2010

Family and Friends are a blessing...

My bloating has doubled in size and my pain has gotten worse. I asked the embryologist if that is normal and she said yes and to just keep drinking water and stand up every once in a while. I said well I have no choice but to stand every 20-30min when my bladder feels like it is going to burst! She also told me that if the embryos look good on Thursday we are going to do a Saturday transfer. If not and they are not looking very good they are going to put one in on Thursday at 3:00 and let the rest keep maturing then freeze them till next time.

Justin and I have so much on our plate right now and it is an emotional roller-coaster... With Visa stuff, his exams this week and all the IVF procedures and pain, we are spent emotionally. But having friends and family in our lives, praying, helping, and encouraging us, means a lot. we love sharing this with those we love and care about.
My mom got so excited to hear that we have 8 embryos. It was good to see her smile and get excited over this. It is nice to share this exciting news with you mom and thank you for the prayers. I know it is hard for you not being here for me, but you are here in my heart and it is all in the Lords hands. He is taking very good care of me :)
Thank you Liz and Leslie for calling me yesterday to see how I was and getting excited with Justin and me. It means a lot to us that you both are there for us. We loved sharing this happy news with both of you.
Thank you Manny, Kim and Kalie for all the prayers and encouragement, we love you all so very much and are so blessed to have you all in our life and sharing this with you :)
We want our families to know that it helps to ease our anxiety when they show interest and excitement with us. So please keep up the encouraging words and joy for the life the Lord has created this week. Eight tiny lives that now belong to this loving family...
The Lord has blessed us with such sweet friends that call, come over, makes us dinner while I am on bed rest, or driving us to our appointment on Monday, it was such a blessing. You find out a lot about who is really there for you in a crunch. I hope I can be as good as a friend to them as they have been to me. Thank you Oxford friends...It means a lot to us. You are our family and we are so blessed to have you in our life. And for the offers of making meals for us from Kelli's friend to whom I have not even met was so sweet... Thank you :) Oh and Kelli, thank you for the BEST chicken pot pie I have ever had!! That is all I have eaten for the past two days, LOL!
Please keep praying for us and for the Lord to allow this door to be opened...
We really want to hold our baby and love it with all that we have. It would bring so much joy into our home...